Here’s what I’ve learned about myself in 2010. I am a P. If you’re not a Myers Briggs person, this will mean little to you, so let me explain.
J’s are people who plan, organize, and implement. People who make to-do lists and keep their resolutions. People who use Google Street View to find the cafe around the corner from their hotel three months before they go to Italy.
P’s are people who prefer to take things as they come. People who listen to their mood before they decide what to do on a Saturday night. People who arrive in Japan for three weeks and have only a few hotel reservations.
All my life I’ve thought I was a J. Almost everyone who knows me would say I am a J. I’m a J at work. I’m a J at home. But some serious pre- and post-divorce reflection has landed me here, solidly in the land of the P’s. So this Blog is about me embracing my inner P.
J-Shelby would have planned this all out. I would have set goals for exploring my new P-ness. I would have mapped out a year, or possibly a decade, of self-discovery. J-Shelby most certainly would not have started a blog without researching blogging tools, reading several books on blogging, interviewing bloggers, and mapping out a plan for her blog.
But P-Shelby has learned that she hates that kind of pressure. P-Shelby has discovered that she processes experiences better when she gives herself time to be in the moment without a goal in mind. I still need to learn about myself and I still like to set goals, but I have to figure out a way to do it without creating so many rules and regulations. The rules and regulations, the to-do lists, and the schedules…apparently they depress me.
So, this is what I’m going to do. I’m going to pick something to think about, some new or old behavior to ponder, through the new lens of being a person I didn’t know I was. Each month, I’ll pick a new idea to ponder and I’ll share my thoughts about it here. This blog is mostly for me, but if you’re a friend or a visitor, feel free to comment. I’m also an E (extovert), so I love to process through dialog – feel free to join in.